Stolen from Pooh & Rach - Top Twenty places for The Trix to Live from FindYourSpot:

Jacksonville, Florida
Orlando, Florida
Houston, Texas
Biloxi-Gulfport, Mississippi
Norfolk, Virginia
Chesapeake-Virginia Beach, Virginia
Tampa, Florida
Tallahassee, Florida
Tulsa, Oklahoma
Hattiesburg, Mississippi
Memphis, Tennessee
San Antonio, Texas
Miami, Florida
Gainesville, Florida
Fort Worth, Texas
Jackson, Mississippi
Beaumont, Texas
Athens, Georgia
St. Petersburg, Florida
Bradenton, Florida
Charleston, South Carolina
Galveston, Texas
Tuscaloosa, Alabama
Savannah, Georgia














What Type of Villain are You?

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As much as I love the Boy Scout Vaughn icon, I decided to retire it from the blog since I'm using it as my avy over at AS&S - and how much do I love that our new acronym is ASS? That tells you all you need to know about the board...

Okay, for those of you who don't know we've started a new forum, in anticipation of the upcoming closing of "Alias Uncovered". The initial plan was just for a UC fic board, but once Connie told us the site was closing after the finale, we decided to expand it to include show discussion as well. In any case, we've already been there for a few weeks, playing with the individual boards, starting games, and all that jazz. It's a free board, but we have our fader back!

And for those of you who were interested, we've started a Bel Canto discussion thread over there. If you haven't finished the book, the thread will be rather spoilery.

I braved some Vartan fansites, and also Googled for some Boy Scout pics, and the result is my new icon. It could be better, but I neither care, nor have the courage to look for more Boy Scout pics. Not to mention Vartan...

And I forgot to mention how done I am with the whole "starting at the end and flashing back" gimmick. That was neat the first time, but now it's just trite and takes some of the power away from scenes like Dixon standing on the side of the bridge. I'd be happy if I didn't see that particular affectation again.

Okay, just a few thoughts on this evening's "Alias" - and I'm not invisitexting, cause I change layouts too often to mess with that anymore:

Sloane's line to Sark about "If I don't see you...blahblah... tell Irina I hope the two of you find what you're looking for..." Totally suggests to me that Sark is a partner to Irina - not just a lackey.

I did love hearing Jack call Vaughn "Boyscout" twice. That made my night and now... *fires up Photoshop* Let's see what else I can make...

Oh look. Jen - I mean, Syd's making with the knifeplay - just like Elektra. Isn't that... positively obnoxious.

Forgetting everything else, I loved Dixon tonight. CL is impressive every week, and I just wish they'd trust him with more to do. He never disappoints, no matter how little he has to work with. The scene at the end between he and Sydney should have been the episode's ending scene. Instead, the power and emotion of that scene made the SVRmoment that followed feel even more inconsequential than usual. I do understand that that scene also included some VERY IMPORTANT exposition - oh, what's that? Exposition is never VERY IMPORTANT? Could have fooled me...

Anyway, that Dixon/Syd scene, that's why I watch this show. I'd rather have an hour filled with the dynamics of the working relationships between spies than I would ten minutes of their romantic lives. Yes, the romantic entanglements add (I typed "ass" there" - heh.) an extra dimension to the working relationship between Syd/Vaughn and even Jack/Irina, but with an ensemble cast this talented - I don't want tunnel vision. As much as I ship Sark/Irina - I'd much rather have a glimpse at their partnership. How he got there, why she trusts him, how she knew about his heart defect from when he was a child...

This episode was not one of my favorites. It had a few moments that I adored, but for the most part - so what? I want more going into the final two hours of the season. More dangnabit!

Ok... that Trory video obsession from a few weeks back has turned into a multi-ship obsession. Pooh linked me to this chickie's site, which is FULL of Pacey/Jo vids. And so I got to checking out the rest of her site - and in her "GG" vids, she has Lorelai/Chris vids.... and my favorite "GG" UC ship - Lorelai/Dean vids.

At least I'm not the only One who turns into a Goob watching these videos.

I've just spent an hour voting for Nashville Star. I adore all three of the finalists - Miranda Lambert, Buddy Jewell and John Arthur Martinez. The reason that I prefer "NS" to "AI" is that these are honest-to-God musicians. Songwriters - talented songwriters - and musicians.

Miranda amazes me. She's 19, an absolute beauty with a gorgeous, distinctive voice and a talent for honest, catchy songs. The three original songs I've heard her play have absolutely wowed me. "Bound For Nowhere", "California" and tonight's "You or Your Memory" all have stellar hooks and genuine heart. At the same time, she's 19 and beautiful - she's bound to get a contract regardless.

Buddy has been the crowd favorite from the get-go. He's 41, and he's got this total country boy - real down home attitude, and he just seems like a big ol' teddy bear. Family man who's been recording demos in Nashville for ten years, waiting for a chance to make it. And, sure, there are a million people in Nashville who have been knockin' doors for that long, but I can't believe that Buddy was overlooked for so long. He's even made me cry...

John Arthur is another 41 year-old who pens these amazing and beautiful songs. Gorgeous, real country voice. And he has this great Texas flair to his music, which I just adore. Love that he sings the Spanish lyrics as well as the English. He's also got this amazing twinkle in his eyes, and a kindness to his voice that just makes me adore him. He's got a great spirit to him.

I'm just completely taken by all three of these performers - as opposed to the contestants on "AI", where I watch to see who loses. I want all three to win, but after I heard that the winner gets to perform on the Opry stage - well, that told me that I couldn't vote for Miranda, cause she's NINETEEN. She's got plenty of time to get to the Opry. I just feel like one of the older gents would appreciate it more, if that makes sense. So I voted A LOT. For John Arthur. Cause I think Buddy's got more support, and I just love me an underdog...

Stolen from Pooh and the rest of the blogging world:

Five TV Boyfriends
1. Jack Bauer, "24" - if I have to explain this, we have problems.
2. Pacey Witter, "Dawson's Creek" - He's Pacey, dangit. I adore him. I can't help it and I'm done trying to fight it!
3. Steven Hyde, "That 70s Show" - I mean, ignoring the past two episodes, he was just the perfect boyfriend to Jackie. He's tough, and totally vulnerable. And has great hair.
4. Robert Greeley, "Pasadena" - Four episodes. Only four, but he made an impression on me. Sexy turned up to eleven, slightly renegade, powerful, a fantastic bad guy without being evil. He was just bad. Ruthless. And oh man... *thud*
5. John Crichton, "Farscape" - He is pretty much perfect. Astronaut. Scientist. Drop-dead gorgeous... oh yeah. That's some good stuff.

Last and separately, but not because he's least, but because no one else can compare to him - Jimmy James, "Newsradio" - He's a billionaire. And he's SMIMMY! Best character on any show ever.

Five TV Girlfriends
1. Faith, "Buffy" - I've always had a girlcrush on her. Wild, reckless, with a bit of bloodlust? Oh yeah.
2. Irina Derevko, "Alias" - Fiercely independent with an uncanny ability to get exactly what she wants? Sign me up!
3. Sherry Palmer, "24" - Devious and intense. I love it. I love her.
4. Chloe, "Smallville" - I just adore her. Spunky, fiesty - and I read a lot of fic where she got with Lex. And that rules.
5. Nina, "24" - EVIL. Purely evil. Can you ask for more in a fictional girlfriend? I think not.

Five TV Ships (canon or non-canon)
1. Sark/Irina, "Alias" - I love this dynamic. Whether as co-conspirators or lovers, they just have a certain chemistry that really works... and they are both so dang hot!
2. Lorelai/Christopher, "Gilmore Girls" - They killed the show when they killed the possibility of this ship. They aren't about to hook up Luke and Lorelai yet, and he was the only worthwhile obstacle. I so hate them for that.
3. John/Aeryn, "Farscape" - Wow. Just wow. One of the few onscreen ships that works for me. But man, does it even work...
4. Jimmy/Beth, "Newsradio" - If there had been another season, she would have been Mrs. Jimmy James. I just know it. Even though they were never romantically involved, they had some of the best scenes together - and amazing chemistry. They just worked so well together.
5. Jackie/Hyde, "That 70s Show" - My other UC ship that actually came to life onscreen - and they works so well. I can respect Jackie's decision - but not for much longer.

Found this over at Roxy's:

Do you watch more TV or movies?

Hmmm…. More movies I think.

What is your favorite television show?

“24” - no question.

Funniest show on television?

“That 70’s Show” - except for last week! I should not leave a “T7S” episode feeling sad. Dang you, Hyde!

Favorite writer on TV?

J.R. Orci - I know it was just Truth Takes Time, but that’s the episode that gave us “Toss-the-Vaughn!” I am forever indebted.

Gina Fattore - She gave us “Castaways”, and I will always adore her for that.

Who is your favorite television actress?

Sela Ward - she’s one the few actresses that will make me watch any TV show or miniseries. I won’t pay to see her on the big screen though - but if she’s on TV, I’m there.

Who is your favorite television actor?

Mark Valley - I mean, okay, I LOVE to see him on the big screen, but I take what I can get. I’d follow him anywhere. Immensely underrated. And also Joshua Jackson. He’s done some crap movies, but he is the sole reason that I can’t shake “Dawson’s Creek”.

Who are the most overrated actors on TV?

Katie Holmes - I don’t get it. Her eyes make me think of Droopy Dog, not that she is some be-all-and-end-all of feminine beauty. Her facial tics are obnoxious. Yet, when she shares the screen with JJ - I forgive all. I really think that she was better in early seasons, and that she’s probably just tired of Joey and is phoning it in - which I can understand, with scripts like that, who wouldn‘t? Oh, I know - JJ. This is why they pay you the big bucks Princess. Suck it up.

Jennifer Garner - I don’t hate her, but I don’t feel immense floods of goodwill toward her either. She just - is there. I don’t understand the rush to get her on the big screen, and on all the award shows and all the magazine covers. I mean, yes, I understand publicity, but I don’t understand why she’s become such a media darling - especially on such a mid-rated show. And she’s surrounded by A-Level actors, who actually carry the show, and when she shares the screen with them, it‘s blatantly obvious how green she still is. Which I suppose is why we see her so often share the screen with:

Michael Vartan - He has two or three expressions. And they appear to be interchangeable. Same face if he’s surprised or if he’s mad or if he’s got to crap. Another face if he’s amorous or has a headache. Whatever. Be glad you signed a long contract, pretty boy, cause looks are nothing without the chops to back them up.

What's the worst show on television?

“Dawson’s Creek” - Yet I can’t stop watching it. It’s a sickness.

What is your TV schedule?

Sunday: “Alias”

Monday: nothing

Tuesday: “American Idol”, “24”, “Gilmore Girls”, “Smallville”, “Buffy”

Wednesday: “That 70’s Show”, “AI” results, “Dawson’s Creek”, “Angel”

Thursday: nothing unless the “SmackDown!” spoilers are real good. (In other words, lots of John Cena)

Friday: nothing

Saturday: “Nashville Star”

Ack.

Oh crap.

It's just one goal.

Dangit.

Now I'm back to just being able to breathe...

Nothing like good playoff hockey. I was a bundle of nerves on the couch ten seconds into the game - thank goodness for Tony Amonte. He scored quickly, and I could breath again. And then Kapanen scored again, and I ran down my hall - arms spread as if I were an airplane - and into my bedroom to jump on the bed!

Friday Five

1. What was the last TV show you watched?
I didn't really watch any tv yesterday, just some baseball - nothing that really counts as a show, so I think the last show I watched was the 2am episode of "Boy Meets World" on Disney early yesterday morning. It was the one where Cory thinks Topenga is pregnant, but really, she's just gotten fat. Oh, those wacky kids!

2. What was the last thing you complained about and what was the problem?
Probably complaining to the computer tech customer service guy about how my audio, video and mouse kept skipping. And he helped make it ALL better!

3. Who was the last person you complimented and what did you say?
Hmmm... well, last night I called One a whore.

4. What was the last thing you threw away?
A tissue. I'm feeling better, but I'm still all congested. Bet you're so so glad to know that!

5. What was the last website (besides this one) that you visited?
Tift Merritt. Now that my sound is properly working I can actually listen to some of her clips!

So many icons, so little time! This one's Keith Urban, cause he's just so darn pretty.

And the hits just keep on coming:

Garner and Vartan Heat Up Romance Speculation

Newly-single actress Jennifer Garner and Michael Vartan have been spotted looking "like a couple" at a Hollywood party - intensifying speculation the two are now an item. Garner, who recently split from her husband Scott Foley, and her Alias co-star Vartan attended a wrap party for their show at the Sunset Room on April 18. Eyewitnesses say Vartan, 34, arrived five minutes before Garner, and shortly after she got there, "Vartan went up to her from behind and put his hands around her midriff." The partygoer tells American magazine Us Weekly that Garner, 31, and Vartan spent much of the evening together in a booth. The source continues, "Garner turned and kissed the side of Vartan's face." The pair were also spotted five days earlier at Los Angeles' Lark Sound Studios, where Garner brought the French-born actor to help her dub a French- language voiceover for an upcoming Alias video game. A witness says Vartan "put his arm around her shoulders" as they lounged together on a couch.

You know... I just don't care, but seriously I don't want to hear about any bitching from either of them about the media putting too much pressure on them, or hurting her reconciliation with Scott, or any of that crap. The talk has been coming for weeks. So if you want to dispute it, you don't pull this stuff in public. End of story. You live in the public eye, so be discreet, otherwise - it's all fair game.

It took two phones calls, the most recent lasting over fifty-six minutes, but my sound and video no longer skip! YAY. Now I can go dl all the Trory videos I want, and get all mushy inside! I am a marshmallow of softness.

Carmen is gone! The world rejoices!

In other news: I thought I'd take advantage of that way ancient Unfinished Fic Amnesty Week. Time is subjective anyway, right?

Anyway, I started this missing scene fic after "Truth Takes Time", but I just couldn't get into writing the smut. I know you're all shocked. It's Sark/Irina, as if I would write anything else. Some of you have probably read it already - and in this exact same form. I haven't touched it or read it since the last time I pimped it out to my betas for a once-over. Any beta words-of-wisdom have been dutifully ignored by my lack of caring. I do appreciate all of your comments and suggestions (and you know who you are), but my laziness precludes me from actually giving this fic another once-over.

Missing Scene Fic

And a Colin pic, I'm sure it's been seen before, but it combines two of my favorite things - bald men and Colin Farrell.

No worthy Mark Valley pics yet, but here's one of my favorite 80's boyfriend:



Michael Hutchence was just so The Sexy. That face, that hair, that voice. Everything Trix could ask for in a rock star...

"Keen Eddie" Update

KEEN EDDIE (premieres June 3) - FOX's fast-paced, visually captivating new one-hour drama shot entirely in England, centers on a rugged and utterly American cop who is sent to London where he gets a chance to find himself, capture his lost dignity and fight crime for Scotland Yard. Scruffy and ill-mannered, but not without charm, Eddie Arlette, played by film and television actor Mark Valley ("ER," "Pasadena," "The Siege") is a down-on-his-luck New York City police detective. Dumped by his girlfriend and responsible for a drug bust gone bad, Eddie is sent to England with his rambunctious dog Pete to clean up the mess that resulted from his botched narcotics sting.

I adore Mark Valley. You all know this by now, and if you don't you should really hit the archives. I have been WAITING and WAITING for this show ever since they cancelled "Once & Again" and abandoned "Pasadena". I demand a DVD release of all 13 episodes of Pasadena. 13 episodes! We only saw 4! I HATE FOX. GAH. Hmmm... I think it's time for my to join the cool kids and post pics of guys from my favorite cancelled shows.

But I can never find good Mark Valley pics...


And MSN is a whore.

Loved Howie Day on "Last Call" last night. He is just way too talented. Adored Jason Mraz on "Regis and Kelly" this morning. "The Remedy" was great, and he played "You and I Both" for his second song - even if the home audience didn't get to hear the whole thing. That's definitely the song that made me buy the album. Love, love, love it!

Watching "A Winter's Tale" today and the one thing that really struck me was the lame "DC" commercials. For example, on tonight's episode "Joey must choose between going away with Eddie, or losing him forever." Seriously, a better promo would be "Only four episodes left, and tonight - Her choice. Changes. Nothing." Cause that would be more honest, and so much more entertaining than the show itself. Having said that:

"Ten, my love." Hee. *swoon* The link is to an old Meg art - she says it's craptastic, but she's wrong as always.

American Idol

Kim sang one of my favorite songs - shut up! Yes, when I was in the sixth grade, and Celine Dion released her cover of "If You Asked Me To", I loved it, bought the CD and couldn't understand why no one else had heard of her. And you know what else? I even thought, I hope she makes it really big some day, because she has an incredible voice. There. I admit it. I wished monumental success upon Celine. It's all my fault. Anyway, Kim sang it, and I still say this: She has immense control. She is absolutely the best technical singer in the competition, meaning that she has the most well-trained voice. But she still has no passion, no fire, no heat. And I'd rather have those things.

Clay. Clay, Clay, Clay. They hate you don't they? They hate that you could possibly win this thing, so they sabotaged you with those dreadful backup singers. But you were perfect and wearing leather! Such a little geek stud!

Trenyce - "Have You Ever" stopped to learn the words to the damn song? Seriously? Unless that was just your arraignment, and it that case they're obviously trying to sabotage you too.

Josh Gracin - Eh. Semper Fi. I mean, here's the deal - Simon tells all the other competitors to get out of their comfort zones and to sing something different, but with you he's always confused as to whether you're a country singer or not. Ignore him. Just sing the damn songs. You have a decent voice when you don't let Simon rattle you. But last night? Sucked.

Carmen - I'm convinced that this is all a big joke. You can't be so self-unaware as to not notice that your last sustained word was "back", and that it sounds like you're bleating. Cause you need to get that vibrato under control - or have your tonsils removed or something. Cause you seriously suck.

Ruben - I don't get it. With anyone else in the world, if they sang a song because they liked N*Sync, I'd laugh at them and probably throw things. But with you? I think it's adorable and I just want to hug you! I've been brainwashed.

24

Kate's gotta be the mastermind if she's bringing hillbillies back to her house. I mean, yeah - she can't be that stupid. Unless it was just a ploy to get her house shot up and herself into Jack's bed. Then she's my hero.

Lynne - Dudes, like I told Pooh - That fall can't kill her! She's a Romulan.

Tony - ROWR. I forget what it is you do, but it makes me all hot.

Yusef and Mason and Sherry and Nina - Come back. Please! I know you're behind it all Nina. And I know you're going to save us all, Sherry. And I know the other two are dead, but whatevs. They other shows I watch have vampires, clones, "IT", living ships and bad singers making #1 albums. Everything is possible.

Kim - Stay gone. PLEASE!

Jack - I'm still not clear on why you had to get dressed, but I'm sure that'll be important to the plot. *nods*

And last week's "Nashville Star" is on! YAY! This show is a hundred times better than "AI", if only because the contestants actually get to play their own instruments and are all actual songwriters - of all ages. Buddy Jewell 4EVA!

From Rach and Karen T:


Which monkey are you?
Another pointless diversion from Bijouriel

Silence is golden, and you know this well. At your heart you are a patient and kind optimist. You might need to learn to speak out, though, because sometimes if you are not part of the solution, you are part of the problem.

I'm very much an actions kind of gal. Good quiz.

Survey from Josie and Syn:

Have you ever...

+ Ever been so drunk you blacked out:
Yes. I only have one DrunkTrix story, but it's a doozy.

+ Put a body part on fire for amusement:
Yes, but not THAT recently.

+ Been in a car accident:
Yes. A couple actually.

+ Been hurt emotionally:
I'm alive, aren't I?

+ Kept a secret from everyone:
Sure.

+ Had an imaginary friend:
No.

+ Wanted to hook up with a friend:
Yeah. Only once where I REALLY wanted to though... and enough about that painfully awkward part of my adolescence. Thanks for asking.

+ Cried during a Movie:
Not as often as I used to.

+ Had a crush on a teacher:
Never MY teacher, but for the record, 22 year-olds should not be hired to teach high school seniors.

+ Ever thought an animated character was hot
Only The Cheat.

+ Had a New Kids on the Block tape:
You know it! I had videos too!

+ Cut your hair:
Yes. And everytime Ido, I remember why I vowed to let it grow out again. Maintainance-free is the way to be!

Favourites

+ Shampoo:
I'm a RUSK junkie.

+ Colour:
Orange

+ Day/Night:
Night

+ Summer/Winter:
Summer. I hate to be cold.

+ Lace or satin:
Lace. Satin feels funny to me.

+ Cartoon Characters:
The Little Mermaid.

+ Food:
Soup.

+ Fave Advert:
Uh. Huh. Crap. I don't remember. Ask me again around Super Bowl time.

+ Fave Film:
I'm with Jo on the 'Any Chris Guest film, Moulin Rouge, Velvet Goldmine' part. I love all of those, and I have to throw in Go, Dangerous Liaisons, Say Anything, and Double Indemnity. Edge goes to Double Indemnity.

+ Fave Subjects:
Reading.

Right Now

+ Wearing:
Blue jeans - dark denim, if you must know. Threadbare purple ESPRIT tee and an orange bandanna.

+ Drinking:
Ginger Ale and Chai Tea.

+ Thinking about:
Breathing.

+ Listening to:
Silence, actually. Josh turned off my music videos to watch a movie and the sound on my computer has been skipping. Huh. Now I really want music.

In the last 24 hours

+ Cried:
Nope.

+ Worn a skirt:
Nope.

+ Cleaned your room:
Uh, I did laundry.

+ Done laundry:
Oh! Lookie here! Should have kept scrolling, huh?

+ Drove a car:
Nopers

Do you believe in...

+ Yourself:
Yeah.

+ Friends:
Sure.

+ Santa Claus:
No.

+ Tooth Fairy:
No.

+ Destiny/Fate:
Not exactly.

+ Angels:
Absolutely.

+ Ghosts:
Not so much the haunting kind, but as in everlasting spirits? Oh yes.

Friends and Life

+ Who's the loudest out of your friends:
Mindy. And that's saying something as I don't know many quiet people.

+ Who's the weirdest out of your friends:
Mindy. And that's really saying something.

+ Who will respond to this e-mail fastest:
Huh. E-mail? Brick? Prom? Huh?

+ Do you want all your friends to do this and send it:
And world peace.

Thanks to everyone who's tagged and IM'd to my health. I appreciate all of the love and virtual soup and tissues, but next time just send money. ;)

Rach - Joey's just a mega-tard (Oliver Hudson over Pacey - NEVER), and I will be happy to help strike her down. Unless Pacey doesn't want her stricken... Pacey can have whatever he wants even if what he wants doesn't deserve his awesomeness. Pacey's Creek 4EVA&EVA!
Connie! Hey you! Stop being a stranger and stop by more often. Except... without the sneezing. ;)
Amy - Love that the Howie Day love is still alive and well. I'm currently listening to Keith Urban's song "Raining on Sunday". Now that has it all! He's a sexy Aussie man with a sexy voice, who happens to be a sexy guitar player and "Sunday" is a very sexy song. Oh yeah. And the video is sexy. Very racy for a country song...
Ho1 - Joey is a twit. I was watching "DC" this morning and I just hate her more and more every episode. But then she has a scene with Pacey and I forget that I hate her... it's a curse. I think Pacey's the one with "IT", not Joey. *Nods Sagely*
Tard Taggers - You know who you are, and I love you both.
Sully Mel - thanks for the Jason Mraz heads up! I'll actually have an excuse to tear myself away from "DC" tomorrow morning! YAY! Although... "A Winter's Tale" comes on tomorrow at 11. And I will NOT miss that one. *swoons - either from the P/Jo love... or from the NyQuil... who knows?*
Steph - Heh. The Joey icon has that effect on people, but then again that warmness might just be you catching my cold - I'd check into it. This blog should probably be quarantined.
OnebyOne - I understand where you're coming from - and I have my own specs and thoughts. We'll have to chat tonight - after I watch "24", of course. And I'd tell you that I'm sure your Jack is fine, but I won't lie to you. He's evil, and I've known it all along! Bwahahahahaha*haaaaack*cough* Great, my evil laugh is still out of commission. Frelling cold.
Pooh - Sorry I blew my nose on you... but, you know - no tissues left. And you know you want to write Lu/Lu fic... you know it!
Josie - Ewan vs JRM in a Bond fight? The sexiest Bond movie EVER.

Okay, time to do the Friday Five. And This-or-That Tuesday, cause who cares what day it is? As SM has already noticed, the apocalypse is nigh. What does time matter? Cause once the NyQuil starts to taste good, you know death is fast approaching...

This-or-That
1. Yummier: Chocolate ice cream or strawberry cheesecake? Strawberry Cheesecake. No contest, even from a gal who grew up in Hershey Chocolate country.

2. Better to watch on TV: Movies or sports? This is actually making me think. Cause some movies belong on the big screen, and some sports belong in the arena. Oh, that's right, I rarely watch the movies that belong on the big screen. Give me a good ol' Independent film over a shoot-em-up action flick any night. Movies it is.

3. A better web browser: MSIE or Netscape (or tell us your own favorite!) I'm so not picky. I'm used to IE though.

4. A better way to travel: Automobile or bus/train? "Nothing's more country than a freight train." Yeah, that has nothing to do with the question, but that's what I though of, okay? Anyway, I love road trips, and I'm used to doing them by car, but I'd love a nice train or bus trip. I'm hoping we can get the old VW Bus fixed up before the boys tour this summer. That'd be much more fun, and less stress inducing than a car caravan.

5. Your preferred camera: Digital or film? Film. I don't have anything against digital cameras though.

6. A Cooler Vehicle: Motorcycle or sports car? Motorcycle. I'd take a Harley over a Camaro any day.

7. More fun: Video games or board games? Hmm. I like video games, because I don't have to worry about the losers I'm playing with, but Board Games can be a lot of fun with the right group.

8. Sexier: A perfect body or an intelligent mind? A perfect body. Did you even have to ask?

9. A stinkier smell: Skunk or gasoline (petrol)? Skunk. I'm with One - gasoline is actually a pleasing smell to me.

10. Thought-provoking question of the week: What is more important to you: making a ton of money and being at the top of your field, or finding your soulmate and living a comfortable but not wealthy life? S**lm*t*? That word is so not permitted on my blog. I don't care about wealth, but I don't believe in s**lm*t*s. I'm the least romantic person you've ever met. Can I just be comfortable AND at the top of my field?


Friday Five

1. Who is your favorite celebrity?
At this very moment? Jo and I are drooling over Joe Nichols, who happens to be a dead ringer for Heath Ledger back when he had good hair. And Joe? Can sing. Has that beautiful voice that touches you deep..."down". You'll understand that if you check out his site, and the song "Brokenheartsville" - listen for the word "down". Joe has what we refer to as the ASH effect. And he's purty.

2. Who is your least favorite?
Any of the many who visit our tags on occasion. The J.Lo, Affleck team. Meg Ryan. Tom Cruise. Nicole and I have a love/hate thing going on. Turns out I don't like many celebs.

3. Have you ever met or seen any celebrities in real life?
I'm ashamed to say I have. I interned on an indy that starred Wil Horneff - who is a doll, and ... the Head. It was right before "DC" hit the air, so I didn't know it was him until later... and if I had known, I would have ignored him just the same as I did. Anyway, you have no idea how exciting it was to met Wil - he was my best friend's favorite actor, so that was just the coolest. AND -- now this is exciting, I just found out that one of the producers and the art director from the film are working on the newest Rebecca Miller film - which stars her husband Daniel Day-Lewis AND Catherine Keener. I mean, that's going to be the BEST FILM EVER, as it is. But now, I get my tenous six-degree-link to the two best actors working today. And I'm pleased.

4. Would you want to be famous? Why or why not?
I want a lot of things out of life. Fame isn't one of them, but if it were the byproduct of the things I do want, then, whatever. But I'm not going to whore myself out on Reality TV for it...

5. If you had to trade places with a celebrity for a day, who would you choose and why?
John Malkovich. I love that damn movie.

I was reading the latest TWoP recap of "American Idol", and even Tsathoggua knows all about IT:

Randy says that Ruben showed us all how it's done and that he manages to sound good in every genre. The wax dummy of Smokey Robinson says that Ruben has "It." What -- did he eat Joey Potter? ["EVERYBODY KNOWS SHE BELONGS WITH PACEY. SHE NEEDS TO GET OVER HERSELF, ALREADY." -- Tsathoggua]

I think it's time to bring back that Joey Potter icon, for a day or two...

Ugh. I went to bed early cause I was feeling all hay fever-y and I woke up with frelling bronchitis. I blame Pooh. It's all her fault. Yeah.

I saw "A Mighty Wind" last Wednesday! Man, I love those guys! So funny. So very funny. Eugene Levy totally stole the show, but then, what else is new? Just go see it.

Thus ends the most boring TrixBlog ever.

For all how much I hate "Dawson's Creek" (and I do - shut up), I'm on cloud nine from watching the season three reruns. Yes, I'm a massive tool, thank you very much.

Oh man, as much fun as I had snarking on the DA interview, this is just too good not to blog. I love the A-List, and it just recently updated. Some of the choicest tidbits (and again, Trixie snarking is in italics):

Farrell, Colin. All you Farrell haters--don't playa hate--congratulate! Linked with Kate Beckinsale, Demi Moore, Britney Spears, and a constantly growing list, who unfortunately are discovering that CF leaves a little extra behind (a three letter extra, first letter sounds like "esss," last letter sounds like "dee," middle letter sounds like something you drink rather than coffee) after he leaves in the morning.

Heh. Heh-heh. That is all

Lopez, Jennifer. "The bitchiest girl in showbiz." "Hollywood's loudest, tackiest joke." Likes to tell people what to eat, and orders for those who have lunch with her. Just unbelievably rude to anyone who she can't make use of. One of the most widely disliked women in Hollywood. Linked with Ben Affleck (who she does not treat well, including mocking him to his face) (admittedly something most of us want to do, but still....), P. Diddy, and Ralph Fiennes.

The idea that she mocks Ben to his face makes me almost like her... almost.

Prinze, Jr., Freddie. "Reportedly has a little boy complex which includes playing with toys and wearing a diaper in his off time. His marriage to SMG hasn't decreased the popularity of this tale. He reportedly likes his diaper changed by males and females. But with males, he'll only do mutual masturbation, no oral, no anal. Reportedly likes to sleep nuzzling SMG's crotch."Bi______. Linked with Sarah Michelle Gellar.

Bwah! Oh man. That's just... oh man.

Wilson, Owen. Has used hookers in the past, who report that he's great in bed. Linked with Sheryl Crow and Susanna Eng.

Not so much disappointed by the hookers as I am - intrigued - by their reporting.

Matt Damon vs Jennifer Lopez (Reportedly over Damon's girlfriend, who is Ben Affleck's personal assistant. But we all know what this is really about, don't we, Matt?)

Ooooh! Ooooh! I know, I know!

WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE SPORTS?

DA: My favorite sport is football. Football is the greatest game ever created. It is the greatest game that will ever be created. I am a big fan of tennis, golf, and basketball. Baseball is OK, in post-season. Football.

Is it just me or is something missing from that list? Something huge. Something that is giving Trix OT heart spasms right this moment. I know that Pooh is with me on this one - Where's the hockey love, eh? You're from Oregon. That's practically Canada for all anyone cares aboot it! [And by that, I mean - EVERYONE loves Canada! And Oregon. And Oregonians! Especially the ones like CG and Rhien! Really! That's what I meant...] Anyway, HOCKEY, dude. Hockey is cool! You like cool stuff! And you know what else? I've held my tongue with all the Masters love going down on the blogs lately, but golf isn't even a sport! It's not! It's walking with stops to catch your breath and hit a ball. There's not even potential for bloodshed! So get over it!

Oh, I don't know about the rest of you , but I feel much better now...

HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE A CELEBRITY?

DA: I am more of a pseudo-celebrity I think. It's great. It's fun getting recognized by fans, and knowing what you are doing is affecting them in some way. It's nice knowing that people tune in every Sunday, or that they have to Tivo it or tape it.(Or screencap till the "C" has worn off the keyboard.) That's cool. (Being a celebrity helps me bag chicks, Beavis. It's cool. ) It's very humbling.

But is anything more humbling (or frightening) than knowing there is a fansite out there called Sarkgasm?

ARE THERE ANY PLANS TO GIVE SARK A LOVE INTEREST ON THE SHOW?

DA: Sark does need a love interest, doesn't he? (Oh, hells yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!) Good question. That would be cool. (Cool? Okay, good word, I guess.) What about that blonde CIA agent that was on the show earlier? (Christine? The teary one? Only if he made her cry - a LOT! Or does he mean Will? Is Will still a CIA analyst?) Or Evil Francie (in a evil voice). (*nods vigorously and pants just a little*) I would love to have a love interest. I think you are beginning to know more about Sark. I think he is becoming more rounded. It would be cool. (Heh. We should score some chicks, Beavis. That would be cool.) I wouldn't mind doing some lip-locking, on the Alias set. (Two words: Lena Olin - aim high, "Diaper Dandy".) (Laughs)

From the DA interview (MSTing by Trix is in italics):

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE KIND OF MUSIC, AND WHAT BANDS OR ARTISTS ARE YOU LISTENING TO PRESENTLY?

David Anders: Rock music! That is music. (Oh! Rock music is music. Wow. He's not only smart, he's pretty too!) I'm not a hip hop fan. I'm not a big trance, techno fan. I'm a Radiohead fan. Radiohead is the greatest band ever to live. (I almost called off my engagement when Josh said the same thing. Actually he said that Radiohead should have won the Grammy for Album of the Year instead of Bob Dylan - yeah, I know what you're all thinking - "God, Trix you actually married that guy? And he's a musician? A musician who thinks Radiohead is not only good, but more deserving of accolades than the BOB?" Obviously, I did, but not before schooling him on the fine points of Dylan's Grammy-award winning [and deservedly so] album "Time Out of Mind". He quickly saw the error of his ways, but anyway, back to DA.) Pearl Jam (Ugh. Yes, I said "ugh" to Pearl Jam - it's more an association thing than anything else. It only takes one song to ruin a band for me.), Dave Matthews Band (This explains why he sounded like a frat boy on that sound clip.), Tool, Depeche Mode(The other reason I almost dumped my hubby. Dave Gahan creeps me out.), Jeff Buckley (And with a single name he redeems himself completely.), Ryan Adams (Icing on the cake of redemption!). I do like Korn. I am also a big show tunes fan (This explains the flared jeans and three-quarters length coat he wore that time. Pooh knows which I mean.). I like musicals(See also: My last comment.). But Radiohead is the greatest. Geniuses. (If by genius you mean "Utterly pretentious to a degree not even recognized on the Lynchian scale of pretention" then I fully concur.)


Hey, this is more fun then I expected - I haven't snarked on people I actually enjoy in a long time. I'm going to go look for more fodder.

edited to add a link to the pic of the flares.

24 was fabulous as always. American Idol was crap as always. And Gilmore Girls (what I saw of it anyway) was mediocre as always (this season at least).

Things I love:

- Lauren Graham's hair not sucking
- Kiefer
- TBS showing "Dawson's Creek" reruns from back when the show wasn't quite so painful to watch
- Tony and Michelle Mackage
- Ruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuben
- Jack Bauer
- Smokey
- NekkidJack
- DrunkenPaula
- Nekkid and Tied Up Jack
- Moya, Pilot and Rygel
- UnconsciousJack
- "Farscape" DVDs
- Semi-DeadJack
- Strongbad (And the icon is back!)


Things I Hate (Abridged):
- Oliver Hudson
- Carmen and her goatvoice
- Jess
- No new "Farscape" ...YET
- Clay - when Carmen is within 3000 miles
- "Dawson's Creek" reruns for sucking me back in and taking away my idle mornings. I mean... they're showing season three! P/Jo 4EVA! How can I resist? I mean, the new spoilers are enough to make me want to bury my head in the sand, but the reruns? I can stop watching before Promicide and pretend nothing ever happened, right? Hmmph. I did decide to take down my "DC"-mocking icons though. Don't want to be confused for a fan... *glances about warily* I'm not a fan, really. Shut up. SHUT UP!

Halfway down this thread, under a large banner is a link for a Trory video. All you GG-fans and ex-GG-fans reading this blogger need to go watch it. Cause Pooh and Megs made me watch it and get all gooey over Trory again, so everyone must watch it. That is all.

I think I've found my my new favorite magazine!

First issue disses JHo and Michael Moore? Either I love them, or they've been reading this blog and I'm being ripped off...

Improvised Mockumentary - I just cannot wait until Wednesday! I love these guys, and Jo and I have been panting over this film since IMDb listed it as an "Untitled Christopher Guest Project". Weeeeeeee!

New iconage! Again made by the wonderful JoJo - The whole rocky road thing is a long-running joke between the two of us, that I'm sure some of you will get.

I missed another night of porn tags for the Howie Day concert that wasn't. The one good thing about the move has been that my in-laws have digital cable. Of course, digital cable doesn't include that one particular channel that had what I wanted to see. Somehow my Comcast Digital Cable doesn't have the Comcast channel that aired "Comcast Presents". Stupid zap2it telling me it was on. You know what was on that channel? Some crap WB show called "Black Slash" or something. And? It was on two channels! So... I've got two WBs which is two more than half the country, and no Howie Day. It was supposed to be two hours of Coldplay, The Vines and Howie. And I got nothing.

Found a Blockbuster with season 2, set 4 in stock and they also had the Best of S1 and another set with the first two episodes. I know how I'm spending the rest of my weekend. "Alias" is still in reruns, right? 'Cause I'd hate for that to interrupt my "Farscape" viewage.

I've been semi-MIA lately, and I actually can't blame it all on the moving. I've been laid up with a killer cold but fortunately my NEW Blockbuster had "Farscape" DVDs to keep me entertained. And I think the DVDs have kept me off-line more than the frelling sniffles. I totally blame/thank - mostly just thank ;) - One for getting me into this show. I just hate that I didn't get into it until the very end. And I hate the Sci-Fi network, but that's another blog.

The season one DVDs were out, so I snatched up all of the S2 DVDs that they had - the first three sets. And I found another local Blockbuster with the fourth set. The fifth is being more tricky, but I WILL locate it, darnit! Everytime I watch an episode and think that it can't possibly get any better - it does. This show has the perfect balance of fantasy, drama, humor and suspense. I just finished watching the third set, and I love it. The episodes were fantastic! "Out of Their Minds", "My Three Crichtons" and the three "Look at the Princess" episodes were all outstanding in their own ways. I don't know that I've ever laughed harder watching television than I did while watching "Out of Their Minds" ("Crackers Don't Matter" does come to mind though), and when I wasn't laughing, I was marvelling at how exceptional all of these actors are. Absolutely phenomenal. I'd go through each episode, but it'd just be mindless gushing over and over and over again...

But is it wrong that I found Future Crichton attractive?

Woooo! I have iconage! Screw LJ - real bloggers need icons too! Especially Strong Bad icons designed by our lovely Josie!

Oh! Crap! Josie just showed me a new icon she made! Strong Bad will have to wait... he can go... look at a thing in a bag for awhile.

Stolen from SullyMel's quizfest as I hadn't taken it before:



I'm Homer, who are you? by Lexi

Dammit! I knew that perky wench would find a way to get revenge for all of our snarky tags....

From IMDb News:

As Meg Ryan's ex-lover Russell Crowe embarks on a life of marital bliss, the actress has found romance - with High Fidelity actor John Cusack. Sources tell American magazine Us Weekly that Cusack, 36, and 41-year-old Ryan - who first met while doing voices for the 1997 animated movie Anastasia - have been an item for five months. A pal explains, "They have amazing chemistry, and the timing was right." Screen hunk Cusack has just finished a reported four-year relationship with sexy actress Neve Campbell, and Ryan has been laying low since her break-up with Proof Of Life co-star Crowe, who wed longtime love Danielle Spencer on Monday. The source adds, "No one would be surprised if John pops the question."



DON'T DO IT, JOHNNY!

You are agressive to others only


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Dudes. Just. Dudes - One, Steph - I so would've won your measly amateur little competition. I just forgot about the treasure trove of Kief pics on my hard drive...

You know, why is it that even the most random of quizzies make me look like a perv? Oh... right.




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Oh God. I should've waited until after I read all of her bloggage for today because I almost missed this fabulous rant:

"Look, you're the idiot who stuck herself to...herself. Do I look like I want to be here? I don't get paid enough to deal with stupid teenagers. And what were you doing with the glue anyway? Were you sniffing it? Is that what this is? Because if it is, you can just go away and snort some more cocaine. See if that solves your problem. Go 'roll a joint'. I'm sure being HIGH will unstick you. But no. You come to me. Nursey wursey. Fucking stoners."

I can't stop laughing...

Today's Jo quote:

"I'm going to pretend I know nothing about the future of that particular ship, because in my Alias world, he's JUST HER HANDLER."

Love you so much, Jo! Just adore you!

This-Or-That Tuesday Time!

Who is:

1. Sexier (female)...Pamela Anderson or Jennifer Garner?

Pamela Anderson - it's the whole Bret Michaels thing. She's sexier by association.

2. Sexier (male)...Ben Affleck or Matt Damon?

That's just mean. And so I'll go with Matt.

3. The better piano player...Billy Joel or Elton John?

Billy Joel.

4. Funnier...David Letterman or Craig Kilborn?

Craig Kilborn

5. The dumber cartoon cat...Stimpy (of *Ren & Stimpy*) or Tom (of *Tom & Jerry*)?

I have to go with Tom, 'cause who knew Stimpy was a cat?

6. A better news anchor...Tom Brokaw or Dan Rather?

No Peter? Bah. Well, I have to go with Tom then...

7. A better TV chef...Emeril Lagasse or Jacques Pepin?

The second one. The one I don't know.

8. The trashier talk show host...Maury Povich or Jerry Springer?

Maury by far! Exploiting dumb trash is one thing, but exploiting sick kids and midgets in the name of compassion is something completely different... plus, he has no STEVE!

9. The worse fast food burger joint...McDonald's or Burger King?

McDonald's

10. Thought-provoking question of the week: Only a handful of U.S. Presidents have been considered to be *great* Of the following two, which one do you consider to be greater...Franklin D. Roosevelt or Abraham Lincoln? Why?

I don't.

The Frell?

Halle, honey, listen. You are an Academy Award Winner. Why do you insist on wasting it? Seriously, let's look at this logically. Pierce Brosnan went from Remington Steele to James Bond. That's more than a step up. You went from winning the Oscar to "Jinx" - you're even considering turning that into a franchise. But fine, that was filmed before the Oscars you say? Ok, let's think some more - you'll be playing "Storm" once again this summer in "XMen 2", and I understand that that was a prior commitment as well, but now you're going to be Catwoman in the new... "Catwoman" film(s)? And you're in a film called "Gothika"? Slow down, sister. Slow down.

First off, how many franchise roles can you take on? It's not good.
Secondly, "Berry and 19 other inmates take a shower that turns into a soapy catfight." You've got to be kidding me. You won a frelling Oscar. You don't have to take every part that comes along. You're hardly living paycheck-to-paycheck.

On the other hand, this all only proves my belief that you shouldn't have won the award in the first place. "Monster's Ball" was a dreadful film. There were more worthy nominees two years ago. Sissy or Nicole were more deserving - especially Nicole, who won for a smaller role this year - taking it away from the more deserving Julianne. It's a vicious cycle, but at least I don't have to worry about Nicole Kidman starring in a live action version of "She-Ra". (Which would be AWESOME! With a non-Oscar award winner in the lead anyway....)

*shakes fist at Angelina Jolie* You too! You win and do crap action films! What the frell is wrong with you people! Wait a sec...

Billy Bob... he's the common thread. He must be stopped... and fast - before we see Frances McDormand in a latex bodysuit!

I hate moving. I solemnly vow that I will only move once more this year - but that's it. I don't care if a hurricane blows the town of Charleston away - I'm staying put.

Anyway, I'm still slightly stressed, and have nothing important to say (as if...) except for this:

Thank God for pseudo-celeb Tag Spam.

Moving bites. But at least I have my computer back. :)

And the moving begins...

I found a Brian Kendrick site! Weeeeeeeeee.

I can find no Brian Kendrick pictures... but Steve Blackman? I've got those...

John in a old-school Phillies jersey

Ode to John Cena

You are so frelling hot.
Let me count the ways.
The "oldschool" Bullets jersey
The patent leather adidas
The rapping
The steel chains
The abs
The chest
The arms
The legs
The steel chains
The total hotness
... but the long shorts have to go
I miss the tight little hot pants of days gone by.

The End.

Everyone needs to go read about Jo's dream. You won't be sorry. Just be sure to set aside all food and drink first.


This Just In: I have a massive crush on Brian Kendrick. There will be pics to follow.

Not much to say - Tag Wars have been a blast tonight - thanks to One, Pooh, Jenai, CG and Mystery Tagger. Everyone else should feel free to jump in, just remember to leave a link so we know who's who.

And thanks to every one who tagged, IM'd and emailed with hugs and love and sympathy. You don't know how very appreciated you all are!

Jenai sends huggles out to the whole gang! She'll be mostly MIA until this weekend sometime. So...**group huggles**

Okay... real life bloggage, so that's your warning. Read at your own risk.


Earlier this evening... well, yesterday evening I suppose, I remember thinking that it was March 31st and it looked like my premonition was wrong. Sometime in February I had a premonition that I would be facing a death every month this year. That's entirely unlike me, I'm really rarely morbid, but after an unexpected death in January and finding a lot of people being rather sick in February it just occured to me as a possibility. A few days later my great uncle passed away - and that wasn't a shock. He was diabetic and had already lost a leg, and he drank heavily. Even so, I was happy to see March drawing to a close.

She's dead. I don't think I've talked to anyone but One about her, except perhaps in passing, but my grandfather's wife died last night. This woman was more like a character out of a really unbelievable and bizarre book than a real person. I know that sounds callous, but she was possibly the single most miserable creature I've ever met, but at the same time I know that she had more than her fair share of hardships. When she was 14, she watched her father kill her mother and then himself. A year after her first marriage ended, her ex-husband accosted her and her new beau while they were on a date. The new beau (who became husband #2) killed husband #1 in self-defense, which really hurt her relationship with her daughter. I think all those years she lost with her daughter are the main reason she was so selfish with my grandfather. After they married (both were cancer widows), they moved to Tennessee. After the first year... maybe not even that long... they stopped coming back up north. There was always an issue that prevented them from making the trip. Her knees, her back, her hips... she could never quite be well enough to make it up here, but she was never once too ill to go see her family in Illinois. The trips were of equal distance. But she hadn't had a relationship with her daughter for so long, how could she let my grandfather have his own family? He's the only reason her relationship with her daughter was ever mended, but that's another tangent. I'm sure it sounds as though my grandfather simply could have come on his own... and he did - once, with a brother when another brother was ill. But he's from another generation and it wouldn't ever even occur to him that it could be proper for him to come up here without her. For everything she wasn't, she was still his wife.

We visited them as often as possible, twice a year at first, but it slowly became evident that we weren't welcome, not as far as she was concerned. First the small comments that were almost unnoticeable, then the louder grumblings. By the last few visits she was outright rude. Amazingly so. The last time I visited them, it was a few months after my wedding, they, of course, hadn't been able to make it to the ceremony (which was no big deal, it was a small ceremony that I didn't invite people to until the last minute... easiest way to keep numbers down) and I'll never forget the way she acted toward us. She congratulated us, but almost immediately she informed us that we'd come at the wrong time of the month and that they were at the tail's end of their monthly pensions. Which blew me away. One, we weren't there for money. The very thought of it simply blew me away. We had just stopped overnight on our way home from our belated Nashville honeymoon, after spending another night at Josh's kin that lived nearby. Two, it wasn't true. They weren't fixed income folks. I know that my grandfather's pension was used to pay for their utilities, and she did whatever she wanted with hers. But again, we didn't stop there for a hand-out. I just don't want to leave the impression that she was downtrodden or hard-up financially. It's actually rather important to stress that she wasn't. Anyway, back to our stay - the part that absolutely killed me was when we left the next day. We had had to replace a tire on our trip, and knowing that because of the unexpected expense we were running low on funds my grandfather offered to fill up our gas tank on his gas card and followed us to the station. I remember him coming up from the cellar before we left, but I didn't think much of it, because they kept perserves and such down there, it was likely that he was fetching something for her. Anyway, I was pretty sure he just wanted a few moments alone with us, which I would never object to... but before we headed back out on the road, he apologized for not making the wedding, and not sending a card or gift... which was the last thing I ever wanted from him. Then he handed me these rolls of change. To realise that my grandfather had been reduced to hiding his leftover change from her - just killed me. I know that hurt my grandfather to hear and see her treat his family that way, but all he could ever say was "She's been good to me." I've never seen any evidence of that, but I could tolerate her because if she made him happy, that was all that mattered.

For a long time, I thought maybe it was just because I missed Mom-Mom so much, that this interloper was just the innocent victim of being the second wife. Of being lesser in my eyes. My Mom-Mom was an amazing woman (almost a legend in this area), there isn't a single person who could have filled her shoes in any satisfactory way, that much is true - but I never looked at her as a replacement. I was careful not to compare. More out of respect for Mom-Mom than any fairness to wife #2, but I never compared. If I had ever tried to compare them, I'd probably only feel pity for her, not all this contempt.

It's not that I'm glad she's dead, althought I am glad she didn't suffer long - the cancer was only diagnosed two weeks ago and it was fairly obvious she wasn't going to last more than a few months. It's not that I don't feel for her, it's just that whatever I feel, it isn't grief. I guess this is a pretty strange topic to go on about, but it's been pretty strange around here for a while. My mom's mother (who's blind) has moved in with us a few weeks ago because my aunt's house was flooded. The house is still in disrepair and we still have seven people (five adults) under this one roof. And now Josh and I are going to be moving out soon, this weekend maybe. We found out yesterday that his mother is filing for divorce after 25 years, and his dad's just blindsided by the whole thing. Josh is the only other family he has up here, so we're moving down to Maryland to be with him. I just feel like I'm treading really deep, murky water right now and needed to let it all go.

When I was in high school I had dreams (visions even?) about car accidents, four that I can think of right now. Once I saw my best friend's car on a misty curve. She had spent the night that night, and I said nothing to her about the dream before she left early the next morning. Later that day she came by the house with another friend to pick up something she'd left and I found out that she'd wrecked her car on the twisty hill up the road from our house in the morning mist. Another time I was wide awake, at work, looking out the window and I noticed how close we were to the road. It occured to me that if there was a wreck we'd see the whole thing through the plate glass windows. Not five minutes later two cars collided in front of the shop. That one freaked me out the most as I actually saw the whole thing. One time was much more vague - a guy I didn't know very well, but I recognised his car in my dream. And recognised when he wasn't driving that car any longer. Another time it was a lab partner, and when I told him about the dream the next day I found out that he'd had one of those lucky accidents where you wreck, but miss all trees, poles and cars the night before. I remember telling my lab partner that from then on out I would say something to a person as soon as I had a dream like that. And I have. And they've stopped.

So... I guess I'm writing this in hopes of releasing that earlier premonition. Of breaking the pattern of destruction before it's too late to be stopped.

I owe everyone who read this a nice easy survey or quiz or something. And yeah, there's probably more where this came from...